WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WAY I AM LIVING MY LIFE ANYWAYS WHO CARES

Good day everyone!


I went over the scripture in my mind about the "Prodigal Son". I thought it was a cool story at best, during the past several weeks of my life and also of my wife's life that story became all too real. There are probably many of you out there that are in the same boat without a paddle in God's eye going down the treacherous river with no way to steer the boat that his heading to destruction. Why this story amazes me so much is because it became reality to our very existence of our waking breathing life. After all the attempts God made to us to come back to him we were still stubborn holding on to our way of life meaning its OK to plan a weekend ahead of time not knowing the book of James tells us, "Don't say we are going to do this or that for you do not know what that day is going to bring forth". What we should say to thy soul, "If the lord wills, we will do this and we will do that".

Both my wife and myself also thought just reading the bible to each other for about twenty minutes or so was perfectly all right except for the fact what our Lord Jesus tells us, "They worship me with their lips yet their hearts are far from me".  My wife and I love to go to the worlds largest mall in America called the, "Mall of America". Spending around $300 just for that day would mean absolutely nothing for us no second thoughts or remorse just having a fun filled day since we don't have children at the moment no worries or is there? Our Lord Jesus Christ expects us to be wise concerning our daily wages and to make absolute sure to pay all our taxes, "Render unto Cesar's which be Cesar's and unto God which be Gods". You see while we in the past were spending that money which into today's economy is quite easy to accomplish we neglected one of the most important holy commands of our lord.

This command is a huge "Stumbling Stone" to each and every Christian especially when money is tight to begin with and you got children to take care of and even more expensive when they are in their teenage years and you have bank loans and house loans and credit cards to pay for each month. Now you see where I am going with this. My wife and I never saw it for years it's called, "Tithe and Offerings". Some of you out there right now reading this may think are you nuts! With all the bills I have to pay each month and treat my family every month will not allow us to do such a crazy thing. This maybe true if you don't know Christ as your personal lord and savior but it is a Christian duty and an act of supreme obedience to Jesus who saved us from our sins by shedding his precious blood on the cross of Calvary.

Some say out there we are no longer under such a law because Christ came to abolish the old testament to create an new one! I wish I could believe that but in light of studying the old Leviticus law I am more than persuaded like the Jesus says that, "I have not come destroy the law but to fulfill it". Jesus did for us under the law what we couldn't accomplish ourselve's because we were sinful in all ways and that was obeying the law which included "Tithe and Offerings" and many such other laws you probably never read about. Fulfilling the law did not make us less responsible but more responsible in doing the same you might say how? When you got saved and excepted Jesus Christ in your heart that day the Lord sent to you his "Holy Spirit" and it is he that will write the law of our God upon the table of your hearts and it will be he who will give you the power to be able to do it.

I want to mention what happens to any person whether they are a Christian or Sinner when they don't tithe or when they do tithe this is a spiritual law which has physical and spiritual implications. Under this spiritual law of God came two important facts as a Christian they are probably the most important facts in your existing world you now reside in. The first being, "You are cursed with a curse even this whole nation for you have robbed me saith the Lord". The people said where have we robbed you? Then God spake, "Because you have robbed me my "tithes and offerings" return unto me says the Lord and I will return unto you". So you see it seems the people of Israel were robbers and thieves and Jesus specifically told us no "robbers" or "thieves" will ever enter the kingdom of God but you say I am saved that maybe true I will make this short and talk about this in another post yes you maybe saved but if a man willingly sins that is he knows it is a sin and still does it willfully the bible says there is no more sacrifice (cross) but a fearful wrath and indignation of our lord for God is a God of justice as well as love and he upholds everything in his word. No more sacrifice suffices that is to say that the blood of Jesus Christ is powerless in your life because of your willful sin thus they can't enter the kingdom of heaven because we became robbers of God for withholding the tithe and offering which rightfully belongs to him in the first place.

Again this might smart a few people out there but I read it with my own eyes and I do take the bible literally every word of it. Now let's look at the other side of the coin shall we; what does God say about when a person does their tithes and offerings. The Lord said, "Prove me now herewith saith the lord of hosts if I will not open the windows of heaven and pour you out a blessing that you will not have enough room to receive it, and I saith God will blessed the fruits of your land and the figs will not cast their fruits before there time in the field and I will rebuke the "devour" for your name sakes and bless the fruits of your land and the people shall call you a delightsome land saith the Lord and all the people shall call you blessed". You can find this in the book of Malachi.

I talked this over with my wife one day a week or so ago and the Holy Spirit quickened both of us and answered my wife's question of so many months ago, and her question was "Honey why is everything going wrong with us even when we are blessed bad things happen almost immediately" ? At first I could not give her an answer but now the Holy Spirit revealed it to us he told us "Do you err ignorantly you are still under the "curse" of the law because you are robbing from God himself". He stated that the curse of the law goes into every part of our lives no matter how much money you make or don't make you will lose even that to sudden destruction and to everyday life's situation. You will spend more and receive less and less. You both will never experience "Being in the right place at the right time to receive blessings from God". If Jesus would call up his Christens today the (Church) you two would not be ready because no robber or thief will enter the kingdom of heaven.

We both looked at each other that moment and knew why we have suffered greatly, every time something good happened our way we would suffer. Some of my friends told me that you must be under some sort of curse we never seen anyone go through as much as you two did they told us, you do fair at the begining but you suffer all the way through it each time. And they were so right in their thinking, here are sinners those who don't know Christ who are born in sin recognize what a curse is and see its devastating blows to us. Why do you suppose people like ourselves seem to suffer more than someone who doesn't know God who are stealing from him also.

The reason being is I was once a Christian of strong faith it didn't seem anything or anyone could turn me away and God richly blessed me in everything I did and say. Then I eventually got married and life started to spin its sticky web all around me waiting for me to finish up my last great effort of struggling and trying to do things my way and eventually the spider (satan) would slowly approach me to drain the blood which is life right out of me before sending us to hell. Yet Jesus didn't give up on us we were his and he was not about to lose us to satan, a few months ago before my accident I was sleeping the next thing I realize Jesus was standing on the Earth looking up to heaven and I was bowed to the ground on my hands and knees not able to speak or respond.

When he turned to look at me my head would automatically fall to the ground in holy reverences and fear. When he turned to look up to heaven I would then be able to see his body and head only and when he turned again towards me my head would bow to the ground then I eventually woke up. I didn't know for weeks what this meant but I do know from my past experience with Jesus when something remotely happened to me like this something major would happen in my life. It did after two accidents and being falsely accused of something I did not do also I ended up vindicated I realized then what Jesus was doing in my behalf he was interceding for me for another chance standing between God and I asking God to allow certain things in my life to happen to bring me back home to my Christian relationship with him. (For whom the lord loves he chastens).

This is why we suffered so much and gained so little throughout our lives together; now we are being blessed so much financially and spiritually because we stop robbing God! The lord requires us to give a tenth of all our first fruits well back then pretty much everyone were farmers and that first fruits was food and what money they made selling it. What God asks from today's Christians is to give 10% of their gross salary which is considered the "First Fruits" of Gods before (Cesar's) tribute. We can't forget the second part of this law which is "offerings" God doesn't recognize your "offerings" until the tithe has been paid first then anything above and beyond the tithe are considered "offerings" to God. One day one of the evil Sadducee's came to Christ and showed him a coin and asked him whom do we pay tribute to? He was trying to catch Jesus up and waiting for Jesus to say he does not have to pay taxes to Cesar's government.

Jesus said to the Sadducee's surprise, "Render under Cesar's which be Cesar's and render unto God which be God's." This was truly profound because God expects us to pay a Church tax to keep his store house in order that is to pay the minister of God for his teaching the people (Food in God's Storehouse) and to pay their taxes to our government even Christens have enough sense about them to understand this in today's world. Churches and gatherings of born again believers have to have a place of worship and it costs money and God is quite aware of it. The reason I went into such detail on tithes and offerings is because if we remain under the "curse" of the law how can we possibly be blessed and say we are in the light of Christ but still we can rob God and think we can get away with such atrocities?

Once the tithes and offerings are implemented in your Christian walk with Jesus then the people will call you blessed. It is pretty hard for a Christian who backslid like my wife and I to ask for forgiveness and each week after payday we willfully and continually rob the one who died for us? That man will receive the greater damnation then a sinner who never knew Christ. This is not my own interpretation read the bible its all there literally in black and white. The tithe and offering problem we had with God was revealed to us after we repented to God and truly turned away from our wicked ways and asked Jesus to come back into our hearts so we can produce much fruits of the Holy Spirit of God (Christian works the evidence of our new rebirth). It was then God stopped us and said enough! Quit robbing me the both of you return unto me so I can start blessing you above measure and open the windows of heaven for you as I promised from my word then the people all around will know you are my children of light and not of darkness.

We could go no further with the lord until we settled the issue before our God the father and the lord Jesus Christ. Now whom the son sets free is free in deed. Once we realize what "Willfully Sinning" means we will begin to be more cautious in our communications and actions and making darn sure we walk in holiness and righteousness with the help of the Holy Spirit by simply obeying the commands of Jesus. Let me say Jesus looked at Peter and leaned over and asked Peter point blank, "Do you love me" Peter replied yes lord then Jesus said "Feed my sheep" and he waited a few more minutes and leaned over again asking Peter the same question, "Peter do you love me" yes lord you know it. Again Jesus asked Peter "Do you love me" he said thou knowest I love you! Then Jesus said, "Feed my sheep". You understand that we can tell Jesus and God we love them all day long everyday but Jesus will one day look at you and say, "Depart from me you workers of iniquity I never knew you". How can this be? Because what Jesus asked Peter was this if you truly love me like you say you do then you will feed my sheep and reach the lost in this world and follow my commandments (Love thy God with all they heart and soul and mind and body and love they neighbor as thyself) then it is he that loves me and if he loves me the father will also love him too. You see faith alone will not save any of us but it is "works" with your faith the evidence of your faith that saves you. "Works" does not save you if it is without faith, to go to Jesus to be saved you must believe and the works we do afterward (Evidence of our rebirth) will reward us what we did as Christians while in the body whether good or evil.

What was the "works" Jesus was referring to? It was "Feed my sheep" you must do something once your saved to continually prove your love for Jesus. Paul said, "Faith without works is dead". If that be the case if you asked Jesus into your heart by faith and got saved by faith then what works must you do to keep that salvation in tact and alive instead of dead? That would be the works of the Holy Spirit which is the fruits you and I as Christians must continually show to the world to name a few of them are " long suffering, love, peacefulness, forgiveness etc. Just type in the "Fruits of the Holy Spirit" in your browser. The point in order is don't think you can ask Jesus to be saved and that's it said and done you couldn't be more deceived then you are already because salvation is twofold which is "faith" and "works" together you can't have one and not have the other, take the lesson from Peter while conversing with Jesus.

Our whole lives changed in a moment with tearful repentance and with a broken and contrite heart before God to allow us to come back home and to forgive us for our sins. Now Jesus told us if you love me then "feed my sheep" for those who do my commandments are a brother and sister to me and those who disobey my commandments I never knew them even though they asked to be saved unless they repent and willfully turn from their wicked ways and do my commandments then their faith can save them. The once saved always saved is not sound doctrine whatsoever!

It is our hope and prayers that some of you are convicted after reading this and we are hoping that you dig into the word of God yourselves and find all that I have written about on this blog to be true from the holy word of God. We are not here to be popular I am writing this because Jesus told me to and that my brothers and sisters was his command to my wife and I to let the world know that God said, "Enough". God bless you and your families and may he bring you closer to him for it is written, "Draw nigh unto me and I will draw nigh unto you". Paul said, "you show me your faith without your works and I will show you my faith by my works". So it seems quite evident faith and works are part of Gods salvation plan when Christ died for us. You can't have one without having the other, one may have asked Christ to come in their hearts and repented but is that enough?

According to scripture it is one facet of Gods saving grace the next is what Jesus told Peter, "If you love me then feed my sheep". This was the great commission for all of us who are born of the water and the spirit of God. But if one goes back to there sinful ways now their works deny their their very faith that was supposed to save them in the first place do see what we are seeing?
If you husbands love your wives's and promise to take care of her all your life would she expect less from you? What if you decided to commit adultery what do you think she would do? If you say divorce you are probably correct!

If one accepts Jesus and then commits adultery by willfully sinning and clinging unto the world once more what do you think Christ will do to that bride well what would you do? Can that person come back Jesus to be restored with Christ? Of course they can or I would not be writing this right now. Sorrowful repentance goes a long ways but when one repents one must be willing to turn away from willfully sinning and do the works of Jesus showing evidence of that forgiveness. It's not just enough to say to Jesus or our Father, "I love you" because all through the bible Jesus says if you really love me you will do the works of my father and the father will love him also even as I love him. So the "Works" are inevitably important in the kingdom of God after we are saved not before we are saved because we are not saved by "Works" if any man should boast but by grace alone!

After we are saved then our "Works" become extremely important in our Christian walk this is the "Evidence" of our born again nature. So let your light shine that men shall give glory unto God. What is that light? Your Works!

WHAT HAVE WE DONE WITH OUR LIVES

I write this with a heavy heart, not too long ago I published a blog site helping people to find better ways of salvation. I studied strongly in "astral projection", "time travel", which led to more and more metaphysical research and for the last several years of my personal research I thought I was getting close to the answer that salvation tool that could help each person to better themselves both financially and spiritually. My wife was very patient with me for all those years silently watching me build a crumbling empire of hollow truth and ignorance.

I justified to her and  to many others that there were other ways to peace and security all we had to do was find that discovery in the technical realm, the world we now live in which included using sound waves to alter brainwave states and radionic machines to heal one another etc. Some did work and quite well but not without a price! You see everything we do in this world begins as a "seed" whether good or bad (even with the best intentions) that is trying to help ourselves and others seeking this peace in the chaotic world we live in from day to day.

Years ago I found the Lord Jesus Christ and was saved and he used me in a mighty way some 30 years ago but over time since I was married and divorced and held down a career like so many others I slowly faded from my Christian walk and forgotten who and what I was and now become someone I hardly recognized in the mirror each day. Even though I continued my now "deleted blog" which I thought contained the secrets to the universe for the asking has become taunted with dismal bits of information compared to the word of God. In all that I did Jesus was watching and waiting in the corridors for me to reach out once more for his saving grace!

Still I would hear the small voice deep within myself urging me to come home to him but the cares of this world superseded his voice in my life. Now looking back at it I see the "cares" of this world are like a spiders web the more we get ourselves involved with it the more entangled we become and the end thereof is the "Spider" or satan ready to suck the life out of his or hers life at the end of our small existence ready to escort us to the fiery pits prepared for him and his angles and demons. My wife got a call today and it was crushing she works at a quick store for over 2 years and she is very knowledgeable of her work yet when a supervisory job came up they gave it to someone who hates people and lives on gossip and fear she was also placed on my wife's shift. I also felt her grief not only because she did not get the position but she is Asian which unfortunately for her keeps her from any and all promotions and I speak from experience since she came to the United States.

I say this in all truth because even though we are a democracy prejudice still runs rampart throughout our workplaces in the United States. Of course she and I will pray for the new boss so my wife will have a peaceful time at work and not be stressed out with her bosses gossiping and backbiting of others. This is not the first time in the 8 years she has been here that this happened, in the past 3 jobs in all those 10 years they all treated her the same exact way. So I do feel for her and love her very much but it's my fault as a husband and the supposed spiritual leader had I obeyed God in the past prayer would have changed all things and now we are reaping what we have sown in the past for disobedience to God.

What changed my mind about my research started last year, my wife and I were going to pay our rent before heading off to work and we came to a stop so we could make a left turn into the place to pay our rent when all the sudden we were hit from behind at 55 mph. This caused us severe whiplash injuries and 3 months of being off work and trying to recuperate. Yet my heart was still harden not realizing that Jesus was trying to get our attention but at first I started to pray then slowly as I got better and went back to work I returned to my research trying to discover a better way in this lifetime. But Jesus was not finished with me not by a long shot! Within that same year of the accident while serving with my state employer out of the blue I was being charged of "sexual harassment" from a co-worker who none the less was a lesbian and she proudly displayed it, this letter came in the mail and turned my life upside down.

I have nothing against the person who practices such things I leave them in God's hands for he is more than able to righteously judge the quick and the dead in these matters. We were joking around one day and she got real nasty and I said to myself enough so I said something to her jokingly but nothing sexual mind you but she used it to try to get me fired because she told others she never liked me whatsoever. Imagine receiving a letter from the state and telling you that you are being investigated. That was the worst time in my life not knowing if I would be fired if I was proven guilty. So all my co-workers were interviewed and I was so worried that I was going to quit my job not knowing if I would be able to find another which is hard to do these days.

I cried out to God of the injustice that was happening to me he told me everything would be all right...Yet I was in such agonizing turmoil and stress not knowing for sure until the end results came. But God was faithful the woman who had filed charges against me was fired instead. It reminded me of the evil Hammond and his sons that were building gallows for the Jews to be hung and ended up they were hung in their own devices. I did not delight in the firing of this woman a simple apology would have sufficed yet the state felt it was falsified charges and the state does not put up with or is tolerable with discrimination of any kind.

Yet afterwards my heart was still somewhat harden but I walked in fear everyday because after the event my boss said I was targeted myself because he was forced to fire this trainee and I have been there for over 6 years with a clean record. Imagine going to work everyday looking over your back wondering what kind of setup is being built for your behalf. But Jesus was not finished with me yet! I was going to work as usual I took a back country road I like to drive on those quiet roads to calm down before getting to work. I came out of a small town and notice the speed limit was 50 and right after that 55 as soon as I came to that sign I increased my speed and all of the sudden a driver of a mini-van pulled directly out in front of me with no warning. I slammed on my breaks and headed straight into her.

My car was once again totaled and later after much pain the MRI's came back and showed the doctor I had a 3 cm tear in my rotator cuff and I needed an operation asap. I got the operation and it was then Jesus brought me to the cross roads of my life, he did not appear physically but I heard is voice from within and he said this is it son you have two choices either you serve me for the rest of your life or you serve satan. I wish I could say I was stunned but I wasn't I knew exactly what he meant. It was then I sought the lord with tearful repentance for over two months being home. My lovely wife had to care for me and bathe me and cut my food its hard to do with only one arm.

Because of her faith in God and mine growing by the day I am able to fully type this with great speed and deep thought before I could not bring my arm up past my hips. I am still off work and I am searching my inner most being with the help of Jesus and God the Holy Spirit. When he brings to memory any sins of my past I immediately repent sorrowfully and give it to him who is able to save me from myself and from hell created for the devils and his angels. I still have a long ways to go my wife and I do exactly what he asks we read and study the bible together everyday and pray together everyday. We walk by faith and not by sight or feelings, faith pleases God but just having mental faith in God is not enough to save anyone one must act upon that faith one must turn away from their sins willfully with no conditions completely and pledge to Jesus you will live your life for him and no one else.

What does this mean to the Christian? If you do as Jesus commands you in his word that is to love the lord  your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your strength and love your neighbor as yourself you Christian have fulfilled the law and this is from Jesus own mouth which he spake for love does not do ill to his neighbor. Brothers and Sisters what Jesus revealed in my heart this reality if you hold any kind of unforgiveness he or the father will not forgive you of your sins. But you say I am saved, on the contrary we sin everyday and no sin will enter heaven but you say I repented but on the contrary if you did not forgive your co-workers or friend or your enemies for what they did to you in your past or present God will not forgive you of any sins you have committed it is in his word.

This is probably the hardest thing you and I will ever have to do as a Christian of faith in Christ, forgiveness is what Jesus did for us when he went to the cross and shed is blood even though he was murdered by sinners he looked up and said, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do". If your master can forgive them who crucified him how much more is at stake for us if we do not forgive our enemies for is a servant greater than his master? In closing of this testimony I want to say for the record the prodigal son and daughter has come home to Jesus and it is our hunger for his word to produce the fruits of the Holy Spirit of God. My brothers and sisters and neighbors who read this I still have a heavy heart of my past disobedience with my lord but I have faith in him who is able to save both my wife and I to the utmost. Please no matter what you may have done in your past or present just know Jesus is there knocking at your heart and with his still small voice telling you to come and enter into his rest and sanctuary of peace.